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[meapet]

Ever have one of those days when you just want to be held for hours, to make everything just dissapear?

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[thotkonstrukt.livejournal.com]

That seems to be going around. Sorry to hear you're down.

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Thanks.. its been a common occurrence lately. I feel like i really just need to get over myself.

YES!

[karithebootgirl.livejournal.com]

but instead I try to hide from people so no one really knows how upset I am. Sometimes it even works

hope you're feeling better soon!
and me too...

Re: YES!

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Sounds so familiar.. Do you also say you dont want anyone to care cause you don't want to lose them as friends because you think you're really psycho and everyone else has left you when you've been like this?
Hence hwy I feel like I need to get over myself.

Re: YES!

[karithebootgirl.livejournal.com]

to an extent, yes. I'm very afraid that if I let loose and someone sees how I really am sometimes (whether it's bitchy or depressed or lonely) that I'll scare them off.

I know, for me, I'm usually only like this when pms is bad.. and luckily, it's not like this all the time..

but it is frightening. I have lost someone I loved because of my pms moodiness. I don't want to let that happen again. I try to work very hard to control my emotions rather than let them control me. And times like this, that's way easier said than done

*hug*

Re: YES!

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Mine isn't PMS, its just depression right now.. But I'm so hard headed that it makes people mad.. I've lost so many friends because they think I'm psycho.. and just when I've gotten close to them.. so now I dont really trust anyone. Whats the point if they're going to just fuck you over.

*hugs back*

Re: YES!

[karithebootgirl.livejournal.com]

for me, it's been a long journey of loving myself. and when i'm feeling low, it's the hardest thing in the world to do. i still don't always do it well.. but I keep reminding myself I don't have to be perfect.. I just have to do my best and let that be good enough.

thanks for the hugs :)

Re: YES!

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Yeah.. my therapist is trying to get me into that whole lovingmyself thing.. we'll see what comes of it. Right now its a struggle to even look at myself in a mirror without saying, "i hate you."

Re: YES!

[karithebootgirl.livejournal.com]

the first step for me was to pick out the parts of me that I liked... and the parts of me that I hated. Over the last 10 years, I've managed to work through and either change or accept most of the parts that I hated. I hated the little girl in me that was so needy, insecure and afraid all the time. She was the last big thing I worked on. Last fall. I made a sort of altar to her. Pictures of me as a child, things I'd loved as a child, toys my child loved. Then I put questions she asked... and my adult's loving answers to them. Answers that I'd give to a child I loved. It took me a while to do all that.. and a while to accept her... but it was so worth the work. I'll never be perfect.. it's not even a goal. But I do love myself. I'm very careful to say "I hate when I feel like this" instead of "I hate me when I'm like this" There's a big difference.

Something else I learned.. no one can truely love me if I don't love myself first. Why would they want to? I have to value and cherish myself in order for others to see me as valuable and lovable, right? I know, easier said than done.

I wish you the very best :)

Lonesome + Travel = Bummin'

[reiziger.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've had that experience, too. Nothing exacerbates an already tender heart like having to go on the road for any length of time, especially ifn I don't particularly care for where I have to be. Knowing that this, too, shall pass is small consolation. Usually, I listen to some good tunes, take a walk (or a bath, if there are too many barred windows in the area for comfort) or write to blow off that energy.

My hope for you this afternoon is that you find a corner of peace, even in the alienation that is LA.

Re: Lonesome + Travel = Bummin'

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Lookin at chillin in Chinatown.. I don't really feel like beach bummin today.

Back?

[imortalscot.livejournal.com]

When are you getting back to the DC area? I have a box full of goodies for you, just waiting to be mailed!!!


:)

Re: Back?

[meapet.livejournal.com]

I get back Saturday night.

[moonstaff.livejournal.com]

When you come up to visit again, Mea, you and I are going to go for a long walk. I'm going to show you some things that maybe you never noticed before. But most of all, I'm going to prove to you that you have a LOT to offer the world and more importantly, a SHITLOAD TON OF GOOD STUFF to offer to yourself. I have a lot of practice getting that message through thick skulls and I consider it time well spent.

So....

You... Me... November.... Walk...



Bring thermals.

<< HUG >>

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Ummm....k.....
suddenly I find myself nervous about this trip...

Hehee Blah

[moonstaff.livejournal.com]

Awww, you know I'm full of tough talk.

When it comes down to it, I just want to try and show you some things that helped me to understand what life is really about and to "get over myself". It'll actually be quite fun. you'll have to bring a lighter camera, but you'll definitely want a camera. I hope it snows!!

:)

Re: Hehee Blah

[meapet.livejournal.com]

Oh, that makes it better than. No fears of murder in the snow :P

Re: Hehee Blah

[moonstaff.livejournal.com]

MURDER?!?!?

(to borrow a phrase from my wife)

Oh HELLFIRE woman!! I can't even bring myself to squish a fly!