I am not a slave.
Jul. 28th, 2002 09:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
meapetI am not a slave.
I cannot give up my emotions.
I cannot let someone else control how I feel about anything.
I'm too strong internally(hard headed) to let someone decide how I'm going to react.
I refuse to be upset because I disappointed someone by being upset about something they did.
I cannot sit idly by while something happens that seems to be wrong to me. Well, if its someone close to me that is.
I refuse to have someone cut my hair unless I feel it needs cut.
I refuse to have my birthday forgotten.
I refuse to have my birthday ignored.
I refuse to have my needs ignored.
I'm not a slave. I'm a submissive. And I'm proud of who I am, so fuck everyone else.
It really bothers me when I see a Dom with their "slave," but doesn't uphold them and cherish them the way they should be cherished, especially when the sub is more concerned about the Dom's well being than their own life. To be IDssapointed because they are almost in tears because of something going on, is just wrong. And I don't think its fair.
Hence the above list of grievances from me, who's been there.
I cannot give up my emotions.
I cannot let someone else control how I feel about anything.
I'm too strong internally(hard headed) to let someone decide how I'm going to react.
I refuse to be upset because I disappointed someone by being upset about something they did.
I cannot sit idly by while something happens that seems to be wrong to me. Well, if its someone close to me that is.
I refuse to have someone cut my hair unless I feel it needs cut.
I refuse to have my birthday forgotten.
I refuse to have my birthday ignored.
I refuse to have my needs ignored.
I'm not a slave. I'm a submissive. And I'm proud of who I am, so fuck everyone else.
It really bothers me when I see a Dom with their "slave," but doesn't uphold them and cherish them the way they should be cherished, especially when the sub is more concerned about the Dom's well being than their own life. To be IDssapointed because they are almost in tears because of something going on, is just wrong. And I don't think its fair.
Hence the above list of grievances from me, who's been there.
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Re: Some people...
Date: 2002-07-29 07:42 am (UTC)I don't belive this to be true.. Sometimes the Dom(me) in charge causes this reaction, due to incorrect discipline, etc. I know in my previous experience it was that way. Does that mean I should have never had the experience of my second relationship? I think not.
I believe reenforcement is part of the whole process. If you don't get the required amount, then there's a problem. Yes, I do believe some of this should be internal, but if a Dom(me) never gives any reenforcement but dissapointment and discipline, then of course you're going to be in hysterics when something goes wrong!
I have also found that during relationships, my self esteem is higher than at any other point in my life. I think if you feel inside you the will to serve, then you will serve. If the will is not there, then yes, you shouldn't be a submissive. Stick to topping or bottoming.