B'Damn- Part 1
Sep. 23rd, 2002 10:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
meapetI am so exhausted from this weekend. 3 days of kinksters, photography, bein a kid, seeing my family, coming to terms, and learning new stuff. How amazing.
Friday night I hung out with Dory because Ayla was running late. Dory's friend Steve, was so cool, he gave me a bubble bath and washed my hair to help me get ready for the social. The bath was absolutely perfect, and the hair washing was so much fun! I had never been bathed by someone before other than my family when I was like 4, so it was very enjoyable. He offered to do it again Saturday night, and how could I say no?
Then came the social. I was supposed to talk to Phantom, but I found myself highly nervous of this man. I wandered around the social, talking to Mommy and Daddy, and Ben, and hanging with Uncle "Lets Me run with scissors." Dory's friend said that if I didn't go say hi to Phantom, I wouldn't get my bubble bath. So I finally got up the gumption and did.
It was actually good. I liked talking to him and Femcar, and continued to find myself a little nervous and shy. That really didn't last for terribly long, as soon I found my hair being pulled, and my little head getting lost in it. At some points it was a little harder than I was used to, but it was still very very wonderful..
Suddenly I found myself being pulled up, and then thrown over Phantom's shoulder, which made the inside of my tummy shiver with anticipation. He carried me like this across the dungeon to an X cross (later I'd find out it was right in front of Daddy's music station) and started to punch at me, doing something called percussion play. I had never felt this before, but bdamn it was cool.
Whispers in my ear about eating me, and how tasty I was.. A growling-purrlike sound that made the hair on the back of my neck bristle. Feeling his hand reach up into my ribcage as he said he was going to take my heart. Being laid down after that, but then picked up, almost like being rescued. My God.
Cuddling for a brief moment, then going to see Daddy.. Seeing the throng around him clapping for the first scene in almost 8 months that didn't involve them, and the first scene period since mid june. I have to say I was pretty proud of myself too. Had a brief moment of breaking into tears because of some bad thoughts, but i worked through it and didn't dwell on it. Phantom saw, and he was worried which I thought was very cool- not everyone who has a playdate would check and make sure someone was okay. Phantom definately made Uncle Status in my family. B'damn.
Friday night I hung out with Dory because Ayla was running late. Dory's friend Steve, was so cool, he gave me a bubble bath and washed my hair to help me get ready for the social. The bath was absolutely perfect, and the hair washing was so much fun! I had never been bathed by someone before other than my family when I was like 4, so it was very enjoyable. He offered to do it again Saturday night, and how could I say no?
Then came the social. I was supposed to talk to Phantom, but I found myself highly nervous of this man. I wandered around the social, talking to Mommy and Daddy, and Ben, and hanging with Uncle "Lets Me run with scissors." Dory's friend said that if I didn't go say hi to Phantom, I wouldn't get my bubble bath. So I finally got up the gumption and did.
It was actually good. I liked talking to him and Femcar, and continued to find myself a little nervous and shy. That really didn't last for terribly long, as soon I found my hair being pulled, and my little head getting lost in it. At some points it was a little harder than I was used to, but it was still very very wonderful..
Suddenly I found myself being pulled up, and then thrown over Phantom's shoulder, which made the inside of my tummy shiver with anticipation. He carried me like this across the dungeon to an X cross (later I'd find out it was right in front of Daddy's music station) and started to punch at me, doing something called percussion play. I had never felt this before, but bdamn it was cool.
Whispers in my ear about eating me, and how tasty I was.. A growling-purrlike sound that made the hair on the back of my neck bristle. Feeling his hand reach up into my ribcage as he said he was going to take my heart. Being laid down after that, but then picked up, almost like being rescued. My God.
Cuddling for a brief moment, then going to see Daddy.. Seeing the throng around him clapping for the first scene in almost 8 months that didn't involve them, and the first scene period since mid june. I have to say I was pretty proud of myself too. Had a brief moment of breaking into tears because of some bad thoughts, but i worked through it and didn't dwell on it. Phantom saw, and he was worried which I thought was very cool- not everyone who has a playdate would check and make sure someone was okay. Phantom definately made Uncle Status in my family. B'damn.
