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Jan. 16th, 2002
A: She stomped him, saying "Catchup."
This is what I'm doing today in my live journal. Yesterday was hell. I felt like absolute shit. I had no energy to do anything, but I had so many things that I wanted to write to you wonderful people. I'll update you on personal situation, and then go into the rants that I know you are all so eager to hear about. I'm feeling much better today, if not a little tired from having to sleep on my back all night. Damn holter thing. I actually did slip to my side at one point, but I could feel the diode hanging off me when I was trying to sleep, and it was pressing into my rib, so that didn't last. That and Roomie sounded like a bull in a china closet. I swear, noone else could make as much noise or as much of a mess as a wookie in a bathroom. Arrgh.
Went to BR for the first time in months. It felt so good to be back, only there were so many new people! Oh my goodness! You would not believe how many people there were who came for the first time last night. I was highly surprised and impressed. Everyone was worried about my heart, even though right now there really isn't a worry. The meeting last night was on hot stone massage, and lemme tell ya- If you haven't seen this, or felt this, you should check it out. Very simple technique and very relaxing. I'm definitely going to check it out more for Mistress and Master.
Got to see Kevin (Loving Master) and his switch girl Kelly, and her slave, Ayla. They actually gave me a ride back to the metro station. It was good to see them, because they're some of the few people who understand the true underlying dynamic of the relationship that Mistress, Master and I have. Not that anyone we know isn't excited, and can't see our excitement and happiness, its just a lot of them don't understand completely the feelings and the implications of the symbol that is now around my neck. Kevin, Kelly, and Ayla all do. It's really refreshing to say I'm excited about things, and why I'm excited about things, and not get a slightly blank look unless its related to the play aspect. And Ayla actually talked for once. Her relationship is the first one of its kind for her, and she is really looking happier now that she's started into her own training. When I first saw her at BR, she didn't look happy, but now, there's a definite contentedness about her. I can see us becoming friends at some point in the future, more likely sooner than later.
Not sure what today will bring. Its a new day, and the only thing I have definitely planned is to have the holter monitor taken off. I'm feeling a strong nap coming on, however. We'll see.
This is what I'm doing today in my live journal. Yesterday was hell. I felt like absolute shit. I had no energy to do anything, but I had so many things that I wanted to write to you wonderful people. I'll update you on personal situation, and then go into the rants that I know you are all so eager to hear about. I'm feeling much better today, if not a little tired from having to sleep on my back all night. Damn holter thing. I actually did slip to my side at one point, but I could feel the diode hanging off me when I was trying to sleep, and it was pressing into my rib, so that didn't last. That and Roomie sounded like a bull in a china closet. I swear, noone else could make as much noise or as much of a mess as a wookie in a bathroom. Arrgh.
Went to BR for the first time in months. It felt so good to be back, only there were so many new people! Oh my goodness! You would not believe how many people there were who came for the first time last night. I was highly surprised and impressed. Everyone was worried about my heart, even though right now there really isn't a worry. The meeting last night was on hot stone massage, and lemme tell ya- If you haven't seen this, or felt this, you should check it out. Very simple technique and very relaxing. I'm definitely going to check it out more for Mistress and Master.
Got to see Kevin (Loving Master) and his switch girl Kelly, and her slave, Ayla. They actually gave me a ride back to the metro station. It was good to see them, because they're some of the few people who understand the true underlying dynamic of the relationship that Mistress, Master and I have. Not that anyone we know isn't excited, and can't see our excitement and happiness, its just a lot of them don't understand completely the feelings and the implications of the symbol that is now around my neck. Kevin, Kelly, and Ayla all do. It's really refreshing to say I'm excited about things, and why I'm excited about things, and not get a slightly blank look unless its related to the play aspect. And Ayla actually talked for once. Her relationship is the first one of its kind for her, and she is really looking happier now that she's started into her own training. When I first saw her at BR, she didn't look happy, but now, there's a definite contentedness about her. I can see us becoming friends at some point in the future, more likely sooner than later.
Not sure what today will bring. Its a new day, and the only thing I have definitely planned is to have the holter monitor taken off. I'm feeling a strong nap coming on, however. We'll see.
On writing...
Jan. 16th, 2002 07:27 amOne of the reasons I couldn't sleep the night before last was because my head was focused on a question I had been asked, earlier in the day. A person on Yahoo! chat had found my profile, and was trying to start conversation with me. I think it was primarily to get a date, which wasn't happening (another rant in progress), but they asked me about writing, which was in my profile as a hobby. When I made that profile, yes, I was writing a lot. I explained that I didn't really write anymore, and he asked me why. I couldn't really answer that. Why wasn't I writing as much as I used to? The last real novel I wrote was finished in 1997 (I think.. Master's borrowed that one..) I began to look a little deeper, and I realized that I wasn't reading much anymore either. Why? Was it just because I didn't have time, or were there other underlying reasons.
It finally dawned on me as I was falling asleep that night, in a Nyquil induced haze: Adventure. The books I read, were adventures, the books I wrote were adventures. They would take me away from the world, into one where I was chasing villains, or finding myself in dark predicaments, or in terror filled torture chambers. As a child, living where I was, in bumfuck, there really wasn't a lot of adventure in my life. At least I didn't see it. Life was pretty dull to me. I would write to create adventures for myself, the main character. I remember writing to Clive Cussler when I was 14 years old, and talking about my life and how his books were so inspirational to me because his characters found adventure around every corner. He responded to my letter fairly promptly, calling me a "regular jack of all trades." Oh if only he would see me now.
But the adventure was the main thing. Today, I've come to realize, that everything is an adventure for me. My life is an ongoing adventure. There's so much going on in my life, that each little trip is its own exciting chapter in an ongoing saga. Everyone's life is. We have adversaries we face, battles to fight, obstacles to overcome. Danger lurking around every corner, romance waiting to make your heart flutter and your head fall into a dizzying space. When I was younger, I came to believe that I was the main character in a novel. Now that I'm older, I've come to realize that I'm writing the novel myself. Every minute of every day, a new page is written, a new journey embarked upon. I think this is true for all of us. We all need to embrace the adventure that is life. Forget anything being "mundane." Look at everything as a new adventure to endeavor upon. One persons mundane could be the most exciting thing in a lifetime to someone else.
So this is why I don't write. If I were, it would seem incredibly dull compared to my real life. Regardless of what the main character was doing. Living life is the greatest adventure. Everyone- go out and enjoy an adventure today.
It finally dawned on me as I was falling asleep that night, in a Nyquil induced haze: Adventure. The books I read, were adventures, the books I wrote were adventures. They would take me away from the world, into one where I was chasing villains, or finding myself in dark predicaments, or in terror filled torture chambers. As a child, living where I was, in bumfuck, there really wasn't a lot of adventure in my life. At least I didn't see it. Life was pretty dull to me. I would write to create adventures for myself, the main character. I remember writing to Clive Cussler when I was 14 years old, and talking about my life and how his books were so inspirational to me because his characters found adventure around every corner. He responded to my letter fairly promptly, calling me a "regular jack of all trades." Oh if only he would see me now.
But the adventure was the main thing. Today, I've come to realize, that everything is an adventure for me. My life is an ongoing adventure. There's so much going on in my life, that each little trip is its own exciting chapter in an ongoing saga. Everyone's life is. We have adversaries we face, battles to fight, obstacles to overcome. Danger lurking around every corner, romance waiting to make your heart flutter and your head fall into a dizzying space. When I was younger, I came to believe that I was the main character in a novel. Now that I'm older, I've come to realize that I'm writing the novel myself. Every minute of every day, a new page is written, a new journey embarked upon. I think this is true for all of us. We all need to embrace the adventure that is life. Forget anything being "mundane." Look at everything as a new adventure to endeavor upon. One persons mundane could be the most exciting thing in a lifetime to someone else.
So this is why I don't write. If I were, it would seem incredibly dull compared to my real life. Regardless of what the main character was doing. Living life is the greatest adventure. Everyone- go out and enjoy an adventure today.
Pass it On
Jan. 16th, 2002 01:56 pmJust got back my Essential Reiki book, and immediately passed it off to a friend who was interested in it. I feel like this is a good thing, passing on information to different people, who probably wouldn't have known about such things earlier. Now I wan to find a way to combine reiki and stone massage.